A beautiful life

In today’s world, no one seems to want an authentic connection anymore. I’m feeling the weight of the sugar coated Facebook and Instagram posts and if I am not online, then I am surrounded by people swimming in the sea while holding selfie sticks to capture and post the moment.

I haven’t posted anything here for quite some time. I also stopped reading other people’s blogs too. Why? I promised myself that I would try to keep the content here positive, light and fun and well, my life stopped being any of those things quite some time ago.

From an outside perspective, I have a beautiful life. Quirky. Never dull. Adventurous. I have struggled to always maintain that the glass can be refilled too. Optimism should be my friend.

But, my reality tells a different story. What was once a jokey approach to my situation here in Italy has become a sad tale of multiple disappointment. The ugly side of what appears to be a beautiful life.

My survival mode kicked in and I shuttered myself away from the world. Poured myself into dreams that seem to always be beyond my grasp while the Universe keeps kicking me hard down a staircase and I am still scratching my head wondering why?

Here is another dose of reality. My muse, my mother-in-law, and I no longer speak to each other. While I always tried to see the lighter side of her ways and culture, in the end, my capacity to laugh was depleted.

I won’t bore you with the drama or the hurt I felt by her choice words for me. The damage is done and you cannot go back. Sadly, this is not the only situation in recent years where my presense seems to be unwelcome. So, I am very much out here in this beautiful life alone. I feel like I have no family, no foundation and am lost at sea.

So, in a nutshell, I’m not really sure where this blog is going anymore and I am thinking of shutting it down but before I do, I just wanted to reach out to whoever has stuck it out with me here. My readers have been awesome and patient and inspiring.

I thank all of you for riding this crazy rollercoaster with me! It was fun while it lasted but perhaps time to move on.


Leah xo

About lmarmstrong66

I'm a blogger, painter, writer, singer. For the love of all things in nature and creativity.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink.

12 Responses to A beautiful life

  1. RICK D says:

    “I feel like I have no family, no foundation and am lost at sea.” I am so sorry that you are feeling this way Leah – I can’t imagine the pain you are experiencing. For what it’s worth, you still have your legions of fans/friends who love reading your blog. We owe you so much for providing a glimpse of life in italy – the good, the bad, and the ugly. If you decide to give up your blog, then so be it. We will miss you for sure but you have to do what you need to do to feel good about yourself again. In bocca al lupo!

  2. Jan says:

    Very sad to hear this. I have always enjoyed your posts and your quirky sense of humour. Remember, ‘this too will pass’. These are four little words that are useful to keep in mind. Life gets difficult at times but it is still beautiful. I hope you continue your blogs and that you can see the happy side of life again soon.

  3. Kate says:

    Nooo! Sorry to hear about your troubles. I’ve enjoyed your adventures so much. At least let me know your Instagram user so I can follow you there.

  4. Cynthia Preston says:

    Sugarplum, I love you! I am here & I will listen if you want to talk or not listen if you just want to sit together, in person or online. You are always welcome in my home. You live in my heart.
    Love you babe.
    Any time, all the time.
    After you know what with you know who, friends saved my heart. Let us. Let me. I got you girl.

  5. palentuccio says:

    Just found your blog, and so sorry to read your last post! I know a little bit about Italian Mamas and MILs so you have all my sympathy … best wishes for your future.

    • Hi there, thank you for your kind note. I have slowly been emerging from my stress coma and am back to blogging. Not sure if I will have another relapse, I hope not, but for now, I am back and posting so I hope you come back to visit me soon! Hugs, Leah

  6. kimkarat says:

    Glad you didn’t close this blog, I really appreciate your emotional honesty.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.