I’ve been on board the ship over 2 weeks now. I just received feedback on an old blog post of mine about “being an Expat, married and alone”. I want to thank Barbara http://theespressobreak.blogspot.com for her comment because it couldn’t have come at a better time.
You see, after reading Barbara’s comment I decided to re-read my own entry. And, I’m glad I did. Today is one of those days when married life is challenging me and my recent choices. Barbara made me feel like I am not alone in my quest to balance my life with both the rainbows and the rain.
I realized that when I am with my husband I put this imaginary pressure on our limited time together for everything to be ‘picture perfect’. Last week we were supposed to go out for dinner shore side. The weather was perfect and my husband had some time off work. Only, I didn’t want to go because I was out with friends late the night before, drank too much wine and quite honestly was feeling a bit hungover.
Fast forward to this week and we made plans again to go ashore together. We planned a relaxing day at the beach and a nice lunch. BUT, this is where my perfect picture gets a bit messy. You see, today, it is gray and raining. I decided who cares, lets go anyways but my husband calls me up from his office down the corridor to tell me that he has one more job to do and it’s already going on 3:00 pm.
I gave up on waiting for the ‘lunch’ part of our day…otherwise I would have starved by now. I went out on Lido deck and sulked for an hour and was thinking why can’t things be perfect when we are together? How ridiculous I am being is besides the point!
Then I came back to our cabin and read Barbara’s email and my old post. Life is not perfect and even when my husband and I are in the same country or on the same boat, it doesn’t mean that a little rain will not fall on us from time to time. So, thank you Barbara, you have been the rainbow in my day!